Thanks for stopping by. As you may or may not have noticed in my previous blog post (why start a blog), I have decided to face my fears and dive into the unknown by buying a ticket to Amsterdam.
Although this had been a dream of mine since I was 18 (I’m now almost 25), I had always been tremendously fearful of traveling by my lonesome. The idea of ‘Ridin’ Solo’ (in the famous words of Jason Derulo) had frightened me so much that I decided the only way to travel was to force my friends to join me. And so each year I would try to convince my best friends to get on my level and find their inner traveller, despite any life plans they may have already made for themselves.
Unfortunately, the annoying thing about friends is that no matter how much you try to bribe them to go on a whirlwind adventure abroad with you – they can decide they simply don’t want to go. After 8 years of trying, I’ve realised, you can’t always force people to join in on your nomadic wanderlust adventures (I’m not a fast learner, obviously).
So I did what any friend bribing, fearful person would do; I got drunk. Now I wouldn’t recommend getting intoxicated to make important life decisions, however on this particular occasion, on New Years night, the stars had aligned serendipitously. It was a magical combination; A bottle of wine and a dirt-cheap flight sale that spontaneously appeared on my newsfeed. It was this combination that gave me the YOLO-inspired push I needed.
Sure, I had reasons to NOT make such a reckless decision. I had a good job where I had potential to grow and progress in a fast booming successful ecommerce start up. I had barely enough money for flights, with very little cash in my bank account in terms of savings. I also didn’t have much courage or any solo travel experience behind me and I had never been to Europe before.
You could say I had multiple reasons why I shouldn’t proceed with purchasing that dirt cheap flight. There were so many opportunities to say “not this year” so I could chicken out again and feel safe and cozy in the knowledge that I said no to something that made me feel out of my comfort zone.
This time, I didn’t. This time I said YES.
Now, fast track three months later, I’m currently compiling all my hard earned cash like mad in order to get my savings ready for the adventure of a lifetime. In June I will be finishing up at my job and by July 25th I will be staring at all of my fears straight in their big, ugly, scary faces while I board a plane to spend 4 months solo in Europe!
“Leap and the net will appear” – John Burroughs.
When I made that exhilarating, drunken leap – I have never felt such a combination of anxiety, worry, dread mixed with extreme excitement, euphoria and pride. Although I’ve still got a few months to go before I depart, I’m already finding sparks of courage I didn’t know I had and cannot wait for the journey to unfold!
Stay tuned and I’ll keep you posted on all my little ramblings along the way.